20 Sep 2017

Healing and other Dilemas

I have been having a hard time doing real posts lately. By real, I mean something that isn't a tag or etc.

Things have been good, I've been good. I was worried for awhile that I wouldn't be able to say that without lying. I can say it now. I'm scared to jinx it, or that to admit it means I'm not allowed to have bad days anymore.

I'm still overwhelmed and drowning in half done projects, deadlines, and various other things.
I have been working hard at finishing at least some of the things.

Most pressing are the two contests I am entering.

The Roogle Wood Press one has hit a bit of a snag with me. I have established the world, the characters, and stakes. I have figured out my ending and the twist with the apple. I have gotten some mixed feedback, and now I'm not sure how to write it, I guess. While its cool to see different peoples reactions to different characters, I'm at a loss of what to correct. I will sort it out... eventually.

The other contest has a 5,000 word limit which is so few words. I'm not sure if I will be able to make anything cohesive. I'm going to try.

My friend and I decided we are going to sell our art at a trade show. I have never done something like it before, and I am super nervous. It's making me step up my productivity and art game. So it's already helping I guess.

I am drowning in unread books, beta reads, and books to review.

I like being busy though so it's a good thing I guess. I am also working towards my license again, hopefully it will work out this time.

That's what I'm running on these days hope, it's most likely misplaced. I feel like being optimistic lately.

I'm wearing a smile, and it's genuine. It's small things like that, that let me know I'm healing.

Everything is still a mess, but I'm feeling good. 



  1. Bad days are hard and I feel like I can relate to what you said. I'm working toward my license, too. I don't know if you've taken a written test already, but maybe check out Aceable adult driver's ed. Its all online. I'm doing that for my driver's ed. Don't worry about not having it yet.

    Don't stress about the contests. Writing should be fun. You'll do great. And I'm sure your art will make millions. :D

    Just remember that everything has a purpose and your heart is still beating. <3
    (And, if you need music to lift you up, try Still Breathing by Veridia. Its helped me the past few days.)

    Have a wonderful day!! <3


    1. They are! I can pass the written fine its mostly just the road test I struggle with. Thanks!

      I try not to. That's really sweet! Thank you so much! :D (probably not millions ;)

      I will keep that in mind. I will have to check that out.

      You too! <3

  2. I'm with you, Skye. I'm kinda drowning here in grad school, thirty different commitments and projects, somuchtodo but it's hurryupandwait. GRRR.

    Good luck with Rooglewood and the trade show! I believe in you, Skye!


    1. It's rough, trying to juggle it all. Good Luck with all of it.

      Thanks, I really appreciate it!

  3. I love your honesty. and really, I feel you. things are great and not great. kinda messy, but okay.

    best of luck with everything <3

  4. It just swells my heart to hear you're happy, that you're feeling good and doing okay. Just...I can't even tell you how happy this makes me! And hope is NEVER misplaced. Running on hope is a beautiful, beautiful thing, and hope can never run out. With God, we have infinite hope. So you just keep clinging to it! <3

    I'm sorry to hear you've hit a snag on your Snow White story! If you ever need a brainstorming partner, don't hesitate to shoot me an email. Sometimes just typing it out and talking to someone can help. And I'm so excited for your story, I'm MORE than happy to help it! I do so hope you'll get everything sorted!

    That's sooo exciting you're going to sell your art at an art trade show! Your art is so gorgeous, it deserves some love. I just know people are gonna love it!

    Love ya, girl. I'm so happy you're doing well. ^_^

    1. Aww, Christine! Once again your comment made my day. I'm happy that your happy! (I'm so lame ;) )
      When you put it like that it does sound beautiful. I will! <3

      I am slowly working through it. I will most likely take you up on that. True, sounds like a good idea.
      I'm so glad your excited for it, I'm worried it's getting worse with each chapter. Thank you so much!

      Exciting and nerve racking, not sure if I will be able to finish everything I want to. :D Thanks again!

      Love ya too, it's a nice change.

  5. i totally relate to this :( but take your time, everything comes into place eventually! but good luck with all the contests and it's nice to hear you're doing good! <3

    ~ noor

  6. I flipped through my Bible to try to find a good passage for the occasion, and I think Psalm 46 is somewhat appropriate, just for general reassurance in life. Optimism is good.

    1. Great passage, thanks! I love the Psalms.
      I agree!

  7. Skye!!! GIRLLLLL, I am so glad you are doing better and smiling more. Yes, life is messy, but it is good too. <3 Sending so much love! <3

    1. Thanks Lizzy! It's been so nice. It took me awhile to realize that, but it's true.
      Right back at you ;)

  8. Lovely Skye! To say you're doing better totally does NOT mean you're "not allowed" to have to bad days! Bad days don't define us. I had a bit of a bad day yesterday, but I guess the important thing is to weather them when they happen, and not let them ensnare the whole week, the whole life. If you know what I mean? Don't let one bad day make you think you've made no progress, because it's not true!

    "I am drowning in unread books, beta reads, and books to review." I FEEL THAT. I suppose my other piece of advice (and I really need to hear this too!) is not to let the things you enjoy become burdens. Which is SO hard. I have a massive reading list for uni which can take some of the enjoyment out of reading, and even things that aren't academic, like reading blogs, posting or beta reading, feel like big chores. Which sucks! I'm trying just to go with the flow and do things because I enjoy them, not because I feel I have to. It's easier said than done. But it's good to try and keep that mindset!

    SUPER exciting that you're selling your art! Let us know how it goes!

    Lots of love <3333

    1. Thanks Emily, it means alot to hear that from someone. I agree going through them makes you stronger.

      I will try to remember that, because I do want to enjoy reading, especially beta reading. That would suck, one of the reason why I knew I wouldn't do well in college. I will thanks for the advice, I really appreciate it!

      *fingers crossed* Hopefully it goes good, and I will.


  9. I'm glad to hear you're doing better!

    Also, art at a trade show sounds good! Wish I could be there. It sounds like a good experience at the very least. :)

    I hope you're writing goes well! I'm sorry I'm always giving late feedback. Particularly on the Snow White story. Things have gotten a lot busier lately, but I still want to read it. :)

  10. :D Thanks Ashley!

    I hope it goes good, I'm still nervous about it. I wish you could too! :)

    It has been so far. Don't apologize, I completely understand. You always give really good feedback, so I don't mind waiting for it.

  11. I'm so glad you're doing better! <3 I've felt similarly: that to admit I'm doing good now might make me a liar or eradicate my right to have bad days later. But I see it as, overall, I really am doing okay. I'm smiling, I'm living, I'm healthy, life really is good. One of my favorite songs kinda about this is A Life That's Good by Lennon and Maisey. Don't know if you've heard it, but it's lovely. <3

    Good luck with ALL your projects! (I'm going to read your story; I promise I have not forgotten. Just at the moment, I do not possess the time. :p )

    Oooh, I'm working on my driver's license too. It's so anxiety-inducing (for me), but I'm hoping to get it pretty soon.


    1. Oh, and let us know how the art show and everything goes! :D

    2. It's a nice change for once.I'm glad you're doing good too! It is! I will have to check it out.

      Thanks!( No worries, I understand, I barely have time myself :) )

      I hate it, but I'm going to be doing Drivers Ed this time so that should help.

      I will!