28 Feb 2018

Making Crap Aesthetic

I wanted to have a post scheduled this week. It was supposed to be a well written and helpful self care post. I am still going to write that God willing. Instead, I'm scrambling for something to write about. Something interesting...

Okay so admittedly my life really isn't that interesting. Just came out of a depressive episode, so that means I didn't do much to improve it. I don't think you guys want to read about my self destructive tendencies and spiraling self doubt. Besides it's looking up, so I really wouldn't want to write that anyways.

I'm a mess, but I'm making the most of it.

I spent most of the day painting and doing laundry, an ideal day for me really. My introverted self is happiest when I don't have any obligations and I can stay at home. Also creating is therapy for me, whether it's writing, sketching, painting it always makes me smile. The only problem there is my parents get a bit worried. They think I'm isolating myself, I am in a way.

The world and people always tend to wear me down, so I have to escape it for a bit. I don't know if this is how it is for other creative people.  I feel like you have to be okay with being alone and being misunderstood when you make things.

Because most people won't get it. People will also undervalue you and your art. This happens to everyone it's normal. I think, I'm probably not the best judge of normal... but whatever.

I am so thankful for coconut milk and dairy free cheese.

 I had a point, oh right, don't let that stop you. Don't let anyone's opinion except God's and yours define you. Whatever you want to do or create, do it! Or at least attempt to do it, you might fail. It might be the crappiest thing ever, but it's something. It's a start, just keep doing it until your happy with it.

Make yourself proud. Don't compete with anyone but yourself, that's how you improve. That's how you progress in life. Let them criticize, but don't listen. Keep going. Art is hard, life is hard, do it anyway.

If it's crap, make crap your aesthetic.


Crappy things I have embraced.

1. I'm messy when I paint, every single one of my shirts and pants have paint on them I pretend it's part of my look.

2. Bad vision, thanks to all my reading and writing. People usually think I'm smart.

3. Cheap brushes and paint, you don't cry when you have to throw out a cheap brush. The paint being a bit streaky adds to my sketchy style.

4. I have no idea what I'm doing, ( I don't use a color wheel, I don't do base coats, I have no clue about shadows and highlights) I pretend that I know things, but it's a lie. This one is great, because I always say I'm an amateur and then nobody judges me too harshly.


Sorry for such a random post.




24 comments:

  1. I think this post was wonderful. The painting you have in the background is amazing and I'm so happy to hear that you're feeling better. You aren't alone. I often prefer to isolate myself and my parents worry a bit, too. But as creatives, we need that space to, well, create. Just keep being your awesome self. :D

    ~Ivie|Ivie Writes

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    1. Thanks Ivie! Glad you like it, it's for my mom. It's not something I would usually paint, but I'm having fun with it. It's a good feeling. I was hoping I wasn't the only one. True I think it's a must.
      I'll try! Thanks for the lovely comment! <3

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  2. *hugs*

    I think this is one of your best posts yet, Skye!! God makes much beauty out of junk and dust :)

    Catherine

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  3. *Hugs* I hope this season fades. I'm glad things are looking up. I'll pray for you that it'll continue to be positive. I loved your painting. It's beautiful, just like this post!

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    1. *Hugs* It is slowly but it's happening. Me too! Prayers are always appreciated. :D
      Thanks so much!!!

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  4. I so hope the light continues to shine brighter for you, Skye. You're in my prayers. <3

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  5. "I'm a mess, but I'm making the most of it" That, right there, is exactly how I feel. I also just got out of a depressed state so I feel you.

    This post is great, Skye! I love your painting!

    Lilah
    lilahsmusicals.blogspot.com

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    1. A good motto to have. Hope your doing better too, it's always tough to deal with the after affects of depression. I'll pray for you!

      Thanks! That means a lot thanks!
      <3

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  6. I love your random posts and will never, EVER complain about anything you post. I honestly found this post super inspiring! Making beauty out of junk and embracing it is the best!

    I'm so sorry you've been having depression, but it makes me very happy to hear you're getting out of it. I do so hope it'll fully go away! *HUGS*

    I honestly think it's okay to isolate yourself. I think it's VITAL for creatives. I mean, I'm a total extrovert and even *I* need my space a lot of the time, especially when I'm doing something creative. It's part of the creative brain, I think. We should all have a good mix of time to ourselves and time with others. Spending time by yourself and letting your creativity loose can be a GOOD thing, I believe. It's very therapeutic. ^_^

    Also, that painting your working on is GORGEOUS!!!

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    1. Thanks Christine, that makes me feel better about posting stuff like this. I'm glad :D
      Trying to do that, sometimes it's hard.

      It's getting better. It's a good feeling. One day hopefully! *HUGS* Thanks!!!

      Oh, I'm glad you agree, I was starting to think maybe I was just trying to justify myself. If you do it too, it's probably normal. Agreed!

      <333 Thanks so much!!

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  7. AHAHAHA! I love the title. And so true. LIKE YES. I understand this on a few level.
    Simply Me

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    1. Thanks, I was hoping someone would be able to relate.
      :D

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  8. This is a fantastic post! I think people need to remember that it’s ok to produce crap sometimes. Perfection isn’t going to happen every time and that’s more than ok. Do your best and roll with whatever happens. Great post!

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    1. Thanks Maddie! It is, it's how you start making better stuff. It almost never does ;)
      Exactly! Thank you!

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  9. Equally random comment: I like your glasses.

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  10. *hugs* There's no need to apologise, this post is raw and honest, and there is great beauty in that. *more hugs* (Also, you are such a talented painter!)

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    1. *hugs* Thank you so much! I'm always not sure if people like honest. That is such a sweet thing to say, Thanks!

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  11. I hate the phrase "I relate to this", but nonetheless, I relate to this post on so many levels. I have one day a week that I set aside to stay at home to take care of all my cleaning and chores, to read or write or paint or sketch or just stare at a tree. And if I don't get that day.......beware all ye who try to speak to me.

    Madeleine Ostermann (AKA 'The Author') || http://writeornotwrite.blogspot.com/

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    1. I was hoping someone would. Yup, it's almost a necessity. I am miserable if I don't get time to myself.
      :D Thanks for reading!

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  12. This is an absolutely fantastic post and I really relate. <3 When I'm really depressed I just want to be alone with my art (if I have the motivation to do anything that is) so maybe it's isolating ourselves?? But also maybe it's just regaining strength to interact with exhausting humans again?! Either way *sends cake* I hope you're doing okay today! And I love that you just make art and love it!

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    1. Thanks Cait, means a lot <3 Oh good, it's not just me. I think it's a healthy thing to do, because I do feel better after doing it. Cake is always appreciate, I am! I try :D

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